Balance

It is something everyone needs, on everything he does or has. Your car, your food, your bank account, life itself. Getting everything to be perfectly in balance is something few people can achieve. Personally I've been struggling with it lately. In between working my ass of to earn money, studying, working out, setting up my own team and STILL prepare for the upcoming Superleague season, I really don't have time left to anything else. Things have been rather hectic. Sponsors for the new team, collecting drivers after my first pairing was deemed illlegal (puh), deciding on how to approach the new season. I have no balance whatsoever at this point.

Turns out, being a Superleague driver does not mean that drivers will come flocking towards your team like bees to a pot of honey. The start of the season is still two months away, but once again, balance. If I wait with signing I might find a lost, quick soul. But, there is also a chance that all the good drivers will be signed by that point and I'm left with what would be the sim race equivalent of Yuji Ide.

Balance in your own behaviour is important as well. Like every team boss I want the best drivers in my team and I will push them for results. But where is the line between being a good boss, merely pushing his drivers for results, and acting like a pushy asshole? I don't want to be that guy that everyone hates, but neither do I want to give up results just to get people to like me. I'm starting to wonder if I will ever find the perfect balance. Maybe I don't need to. Maybe working in extremes isn't to bad.

Take the new Sulerpeague season for example. Only half of the field has officially announced both drivers. Very few drivers have done laps out in the open. Even less drivers talk openly on what their plans are. This whole aura of secrecy that covers the first race is for me as a driver very annoying. But for an outsider it creates excitement. Will Midnight still be on top? On paper they've got the best driver pairing. With two champions in Euler and Rainieri, its hard to ignore them. Where will I stand with Nijo? As many of you have seen last year wasn't something to be proud of. But can I improve? What will Heesterbeek do? And Hawkeye, they were on a roll last year. But now that Lewis left for CSG, what will become of them?

All questions which probably won't even get answered in the first race. It is common knowledge that a lot of people overtrain for the first race. Trying to grab a 120% out of the car since you've got so much time to prepare for it. And after that there is suddenly just a two week gap. I think personally we will know around round 4 or 5 who will fight for the championship. All eyes are obviously set on the stars of last year (Midnight, Torrent and Nijo). But with the new car, KERS and many new drivers, who knows what will happen.

As much as I want to, I can't give a prediction of what will happen. Neither will we get one from the pre season tests. I imagine people will be sand bagging, holding back on upgrades, just to surprise everyone by wiping them in Melbourne. Maybe things will be much more clear in a few weeks. Maybe they won't. Until then I will try and find that balance. Try to make everything I do into a succes. Trying to balance confidence and arrogance, earning and spending, training and playing, learning and relaxing.

Balance, something everyone needs in their life. Something very few of us get down perfectly.